{"id":57,"date":"2011-12-07T02:56:51","date_gmt":"2011-12-07T02:56:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/learninglover.com\/blog\/?p=57"},"modified":"2011-12-14T06:52:48","modified_gmt":"2011-12-14T11:52:48","slug":"the-degrees-of-consciousness-of-a-black-nerd","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/learninglover.com\/blog\/index.php\/2011\/12\/07\/the-degrees-of-consciousness-of-a-black-nerd\/","title":{"rendered":"The Degrees of Consciousness of a Black Nerd"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>The great W.E.B. Du Bois may have underestimated things a little with his theory on double consciousness that he proposed in &#8220;Souls of Black Folk&#8221; &#8211; especially when it comes to Black nerds. There&#8217;s definitely the double-consciousness that of being both Black and American and loving a country that allows many of her children to dwell in the slums without caring much about them. But there&#8217;s also a treatment in America in general and Black America in specific that makes nerds feel like outcasts, like we&#8217;re weird or abnormal. In relationships, we&#8217;re stereotypically thought of as weak, or as the counter to the macho &#8211; testosterone images seen in movies. In school, the supposed sanctuary of a nerd, we&#8217;re often ignored &#8211; until mid-terms and finals when people beg for us to help them pass. These are just some things that come to mind as I sip my morning coffee, but I know that others can think of more.<\/p>\n<p>And what&#8217;s more is that we endure much of this in silence. We&#8217;ve learned to simply smile when people compare us to Urkel or Carlton. Many of us have learned to &#8216;look the part&#8217; as we walk down the streets. We think to ourselves, &#8220;<em>Don&#8217;t think too much about that problem you were working on earlier today, you&#8217;ll look like you&#8217;re talking to yourself.&#8221; or &#8220;No matter how excited you are about finishing that program, don&#8217;t talk about it in the bar cause you&#8217;ll just get cold stares and confused faces&#8221;.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>But is that really how we should respond to this? Should we hide from out intellect or our habits? I find that hard to do, bordering on the impossible. One thing is that I&#8217;ve been this way for so long that subconsciously I always find myself acting this way, analyzing patterns in things I see, looking for connections. But the more important thing is why should I care if you care about it? If it relaxes me, then why should I stop doing it? Just to please somebody (some people) who probably don&#8217;t like me anyway?<\/p>\n<p>This brings up an\u00a0<em>alternative<\/em> approach which is to just stop hanging around these people? But how can I disconnect myself from my community that practically raised me? Who else can I connect with about the plights of being Black in America and the challenges we still face? I&#8217;m not naive enough to think that I could just walk into another community and and share these struggles. This approach leaves the nerds in a life of isolation because nobody quite understands our struggle.<\/p>\n<p>Unfortunately, I see countless examples of Black nerds taking these two approaches &#8211; either deciding that fitting in is more important, and thus living this secret life as a nerd, or simply deciding that they&#8217;d be better off outside of the harassment of our community. So the next time you see a Black nerd, try to understand that he&#8217;s struggling with a lot more than just some number crunching.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The great W.E.B. Du Bois may have underestimated things a little with his theory on double consciousness that he proposed in &#8220;Souls of Black Folk&#8221; &#8211; especially when it comes to Black nerds. 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